A lifechange story!

I have been so happy these days! But it´s difficult to explain why.. First of all I am just so thankful that I am here in Köln this year! It is really a lifechanging experience, and the things I have achieved here this year is things that I have been looking for for a long time.

I started playing the cello at the age of 5. In fact two days after my birthday (19th August), and since then, the cello has been a big fart of my life. My cello and I have been through everything together, and "he" has helped me a lot. But I haven´t felt that I have always been there for him.

Since I started I have always had a dream to become a cellist! And so my mother has helped me a lot. Driving me to lessons, orchestras and rehearsals. Without any help I would not have been where I am now.
There is one bad factor, though. I can´t say that I ever have been pushed to do something I haven´t wanted. Because that´s not what it is. But it can come to the point where you follow the leader, so to say. And you don´t think so much yourself anymore.
And when you have a talent for something, there´s not always so easy to see what happens and just thinking you do it from your heart.

I have never managed to think about a future without my cello, and I guess thats because that´s my way in life. This is the way God has given me.
I didn´t want to go to school when I was younger, because I wanted to play. Some people manage to do more things at one time, but I needed more time to be with my cello. As I, two years ago finally finished school, I was free to start studying. What a great feeling! I had reached to the point in life that I had been longing for. Music academies abroad were tempting, but so many things happened that a lot of deadlines pasted.. Something inside me told me that the right thing to do was to start in Oslo, Norway, with Truls Mørk, my cello-hero! So i did! And believe me, last year was great!! I love Truls! :)

Anyway, as the youngest girl in the house, I felt that the distant wasn´t long enough. I wanted to go away with my cello. So, I applied to three different ERASMUS-academies, and in June 08 I got the news that I could come to Frans this year!
You should have seen me! I was jumping, laughing and crying. A big wish coming true!!
As a christian I feel that God wanted this for me, and that makes me so happy!

Don´t think it was easy to come here in October. I have never ever felt so lonely in my entire life. I cried, was unhappy inside and all I wanted to was going home. I didn´t believe it was gonna be so hard. When you do an ERASMUS-year you don´t need to have so many subjects, so I didnt really get to know so many people.

Every story does have a happy ending. Even though this is not an end. This is infact the beginning.
I am having a great time. Its May, the sun is shining. I am playing in the orchestra, having concerts tonight and tomorrow. Get to know new people everyday! And I look forward to come home, spending time with myself!

I am me! And it is the first time I have felt this way! It´s like I got a new friend, and it is me.
God has opened my eyes. I see the great things in life, and the most important thing is: I know I´m gonna have a great life! Its all here waiting for me to grab it!
And the cello is with me, or in fact I am with the cello!

This summer I will move back to Oslo. I am very looking forward to having lessons with Truls again. And be with my friends. But I have also started to plan a lot of things for me and my cello!

I am so thankful!